Monday, April 30, 2018

fallback



and denial creeps in
it has a way about it
surreptitious silent habitual 
the fallback the go to the familiar
a wise mechanism protective safe
a comforting womb warm embracing
here, have a cup of tea brewed with birth water
steeped in disappointment
welcome settle in denial kisses the top of your
head sings lullabies into your ears 
you sleep you float you cope once again
©Karen Casady2018

Sunday, April 29, 2018

boundary



and now I’m confused
put off and cut off by
a boundary a line in
the sand that cannot be
crossed I cannot forget
the image of you throwing
a tantrum the drama of which
belonged on stage but for the fact
that was really happening in front of
me as I silently watched unable to
process it because I have never borne
witness to such behavior and for that I
am grateful and no I was
not afraid nor was I angry instead I sat
in quiet disbelief to the episode that unfolded
before me and as quickly as you started you ended
not because you caught yourself but because somehow
you’d finished what you had to say nay scream nay howl
nay roar though that word implies the king of beasts
the lion in all its magnificence and glory
neither of which describe what I watched and now when
I look at you I can’t forget that you were that person even
as you go back to being yourself I cannot forget the violence
that became your demeanor and how easily you transformed and
how I now weigh the possibilities of enduring another momentary loss
of control and how now I am wont to confront you even gently for fear
of a repeat performance so yes now, I am cut off and put off by a boundary a line
in the sand that cannot be crossed because I cannot forget what happened
©Karen Casady2018

Saturday, April 28, 2018

apparition

my dear madam
might I join you in that
shot of vodka though I
feel certain of your answer
you must hear me out for I
want only to participate in your
triumph to aid you in your endeavors
flattered that I am how could I possibility
hold sway over you I mean not to cast a
shadow over you but rather to be your shadow
a mere apparition a slight phantom an admiring daydream
who slips into your mind and body
in this singular act I cannot be stopped
©Karen Casady2018

Friday, April 27, 2018

singular

my dear sir
busy though you maybe I
retain the right to be busier and
that my oeuvre might take precedence
over yours that the stuff of my doing
and being overrides all attention I may
or may not confer upon you and  
how dare I not have time for you
and your roguery your enticements and
your bustle ever so beguiling enough to distract
me from my singular purpose of mastery and 
attainment that I would even allow such a thing to
to come between me and triumph but 
you beckon and I resist you enchant and I waiver 
you fascinate and I am spellbound to the degree that only a splash of cold water upon my face and 
a shot of vodka chugged can return me to 
my state of determination
©Karen Casady2018

Thursday, April 26, 2018

Invitation



invite yourself? 
yes of course
why don’t you
first time
last time
an intrusion upon my sacred ground

no more
never again
ask though you might
the answer will be no
always no

you trampled my cherished garden
tried to make it your garden
it will never be your garden
you are a weed
here swallow some DDT
©Karen Casady2018

Wednesday, April 25, 2018

dust

And what about that
braying anger and that 
beastly shouting and the 
raucous stomping of your feet
a violent stampede meant to 
upend and trample all reason and
symmetry to disable sanity in hopes of
dragging the rational into the depths of
dark confrontation where the muck of 
life comes apart and tornados rage with 
only the intent of destruction and obliteration 
and I sit and take note and wait till the storm
passes and search my integrity and find that I
am intact and unharmed but you combusted and
now lie on the floor disguised as a contrite pile of
shit destined to dry into non-amendable dust
©Karen Casady2018

Tuesday, April 24, 2018



When I bought my first pair of
hiking boots my mother said, 
“What do you need THOSE for?”
To which I retorted, “For hiking.”
And she waved me away with a flick
of her hand.

When my daughter bought 
her first pair of hiking boots I said,
“THOSE will last a long time.”
To which she replied, “An investment.”
And I nodded as I laced up my 
old worn brown lovelies.
©Karen Casady2018
 


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