put off and cut off by
a boundary a line in
the sand that cannot be
crossed I cannot forget
the image of you
throwing
a tantrum the drama of
which
belonged on stage but
for the fact
that was really happening
in front of
me as I silently watched
unable to
process it because I
have never borne
witness to such behavior
and for that I
am grateful and no I was
not afraid nor was I angry
instead I sat
in quiet disbelief to
the episode that unfolded
before me and as
quickly as you started you ended
not because you caught
yourself but because somehow
you’d finished what you
had to say nay scream nay howl
nay roar though that
word implies the king of beasts
the lion in all its
magnificence and glory
neither of which describe
what I watched and now when
I look at you I can’t
forget that you were that person even
as you go back to being
yourself I cannot forget the violence
that became your demeanor
and how easily you transformed and
how I now weigh the
possibilities of enduring another momentary loss
of control and how now I
am wont to confront you even gently for fear
of a repeat performance
so yes now, I am cut off and put off by a boundary a line
in the sand that cannot
be crossed because I cannot forget what happened
©Karen Casady2018